Still talking about the Bunch party. Sorry. But there was a Yahoo! Canada photo booth there, as there normally is at those events, as well as roaming photogs and cameras. And I took the kids to the photo booth, and with the help of the staff, convinced the always reluctant Oliver to get in the picture. Callum is never a problem. He LOVES the camera.
For the record, I love this photo. That’s what Callum’s face looks like when he talks to me. That shining face, I swear it’s just oozing adoration. That kid adores me like no other and I can’t help but eat it up. And yeah it’s demonstrating that I need a hair cut, too, but let’s focus on that gorgeous face of his.
Finally. Finally we get Oliver in the picture and they take the photo and all I can think is – for ONCE, for once I have a photo with me in it with both my kids. I can’t wait to see how it turns out.
Oh god. There I am, mid-sentence, telling them what to do. I think it was like “stand together and smile!”, or something. So incredibly unflattering! Hurrah!
But, at least I exist. Because other than these photos, I don’t exist since the last photos I was in, probably from a year ago.
It leads me to automatically think, what if something happened to me? Wouldn’t they want to know what I looked like? Wouldn’t they be curious about this woman they probably would barely remember, what she looked like? Because I would.
I’m not irreplaceable. If I got hit by a bus tomorrow, and Mark remarried (you know, after the appropriate grieving process, give him about 6 months), I am sure they would love their lovely step-mother and be wonderful people and get on with their lives. But if I was them, I would want to know about me.
And yes this is the depths of my insanity. I get my photo taken at a kids’ party and I’ve already married my husband off and given my kids a new mother. Welcome to my brain.
My brain that is in my head that is always behind the camera and never in front.
(photos borrowed from Bunch’s Flickr stream – thanks for capturing my existence!)
PS – yo Canucks, happy turkey weekend.